This was supposed to be part 2 of a blog post, but to be quite honest at that point in my life with this adoption I hit rock bottom.
I was trying so hard to be faithful and to have a good attitude, but I reached a point in which I was emotionally drained.
Blogging just added to the sadness.
Every time I write, I am reminded she is not here yet, and at that time there were so many unknowns.
I quit blogging for months and now I am way behind.
But God has been faithful even when I have doubted and things are now moving and we are almost at the end. I will be playing catch up the next few days to show you how He worked His wondrous ways!
Back to the rock bottom, I don’t really know how to describe this journey. Maybe “Dreadfully Beautiful.” I am not really a negative person, in fact people tell me I can find positive in most situations. But this was one tough journey, now getting close to a 2 1/2 year journey. I don’t regret one second of it, because I have grown personally in this process. I guess the only thing I hate is that everyday is one more day without her here. The only thing that consoles that for me is that I know God is in control and can make anything good out of anything bad. So I trust in this timing.
Here is the dreadful part…Me. There were times when I was so down, impatient, doubtful, hopeless, angry, frustrated, etc. But the beautiful part, is how He brought me through all of it, how He provided through all of it, and how she is almost home.
I hope to catch up on the blog and report on all the dreadfully beautiful things that have happened!
Any post after this will be me playing catch up from January thru September (2013)….thanks for loving me, even when I have lost it emotionally.